Lets if this works...blogn from ma fone

3 MINUTE BLOG

so this is the longest threie mins of my life....Taking my first Prego test... im sure im not prego but you never know what god has in store for me...a baby though...naw im still a kid myself....im daddies lil gurl...lol....so one more min..omg im shaking....here it goes...its time !!!!

WILL IT EVER BE OVER (CLOUD 9)

so i feel like i keep taking this same flight to cloud 9. the plane i take is bad news, subject to fail and kill me in the process but yet i keep taking the same flight to cloud 9.. last night i got tipsy, half way drunk...i learned that i know how to handle my liquor well...well while i was drinkn i hit up my ex sex partner/friend... i called myself in the process of ""moving ON""" but i see im stuck in the same place..nothing he does can keep me mad at him for too long....this guy is simply deadly to me..like a bad plane crash....i cant believe im this gurl, but here i stand im in lust (i refuse to call it luv) with a guy who is deadly to me...when will it be over, when will i move on, when is it time, when will i give up before i die..(meaning my heart being broke permantly)

this ma sound like i regret my flight that i took last night, but honestly i would do it all over again...i have feelings for this guy and my feelings get me to cloud 9 safely!!!!

vh1 commerical

so the fone rang and my roomate tells me that the commerical i shot when i was half way drunk aired last night..lol,,,if only would have stayed in my seat when david asked for people to cum outside...lol its funny to me,,,this life i live with these strippers..i dont know what kind of social life i would have with out them... i luv this social club me and my gurls go to most weekends..its a place i go to unwind and just have fun..even though half of the people in the fake is all hell, its nice to feel like u have a friend in them. its nice to dress up and have a cool time. i knw the strip club\social club came into my life for a reason.one of them being the meeting of my Play bro Danny, he 's the best and also because it keeps me bizzy..if all else fails lets go to the club..lol
so yeah if u havent got it by now then let me explain..the commerical that aired was me being the spokes model for the strip club.....Every fri ,sat and sun!!!!! be there..lol

Melody aka MelonDEE

Yeah, Melody I just wish that I could hold you While you're slipping through my fingers, as I'm playing the piano, What is that sound it sounds so beautiful And I just wanna be close to you Close enough that I can feel you I'm already wondering where you are And it sounds like it's coming from my guitar. [Chorus]Melody, said that I love you Melody, said that I adore you Melody, said that I need you You can call me foolish and i might be but I'm in love with a melody. Donnie and Stevie they can write you Now you come home and in my ride too
MY ReMix
yeah melonDEE, i just wish that i can hold u, while im feeling kinda lonely, as im writing this letter, i just wanna be close to you, close enough that i can feel you, im already wondering where u are and this my sound like its cumn from my heart...{chrous} melonDEE said that i may love u, say that i may adore u MelonDEE, said that i need u, YOU can Call Me foolish and i might be but i may be jus in luv with this one boy named DEE.

Tasha and redy they can see you, now u come home and my ride too.....

Back to reality.....i trying to get over this particular guy...guess i need to try harded huh??? lol

WHAT A DAY AT WORK

So i work at a local Checking place, its fun, i luv all my co workers...a couple of months ago i met a guy that wanted to talk to me..after putting up a fight for a while i decided to give up the digits..we talked one a twice for the first week, then more often after...i kind liked him, he seemed to be a keeper...he showed me the bizzness, but things took a turn for the worst. we ended on bad terms but he is still a normal customer in my branch,,,,Today marked the day we saw each other eye to eye after this quote on quote """"break up"""""....He made it very obvious that he still had hard feelings and didnt want me to help him in anyway..my whole job was buzzing about the recent event that happened,,,i was embrassed ...lol

Now im just wondering whats was his purpose in my life...why did he just walked pass my life and leave such a impact...hopefully not a life changing one. this question will never be answered i guess.

LAst DAY at The DOrmz

So im starting to get the Hang of this blog stuff lol....yesterday i moved out my dorm and into to my new place..its a two bedroom lil spot...the price of this place is out of control but im praying that god blesses me with the funds to pay the rent until my finacial aid kicks in..leaving the dorms was almost sad....not quite...i have lived in l5 on dominguez campus for damn near 3years minus the summers. it was home. moving out your parents house at 18 makes u never want to return, if there is a way u can continue to live away....i miss all those dorm moments from the RA running to our dorm thinking we had a big problem to the drinkin sessions with our illegal guest...this is a turning page in my life,,,,this is when true adulthood kicks in...its funny cuz i become officially legal on June 8th…lol my life is moving at the paste one could image… lost my virginity at 16,,,most popular age.. driving at 17, moved out into a dorm at 18…and now my own spot at 21..im proud of myself although I still have a hell of a lot to work on within myself……that’s for another Blog…see ya in ma 2marroes!!

The 1st Thoughts

My Mind is racing, so many thoughts, so much to do...today i found out how much time i have off work. all gthe spare time next week is going to kill me slowing..to think just 2 and a half months ago i had no time to call my own....i dedicated all my spare time to the one i thought appericated it the most, and yet its not that at all. every girl has to go thru at time of being dump for a nigga, but boy i didnt think it was going to happen to me...i was suppose to be smarter...it was all in my face,,,,all the signs was there i was ignoring them..i was crazy...crazy in lust that it...now next week when i have all the spare time in the world, while my friends are working and my family is away,,,im going to focus on me...DO only me!!!! fall in lust with TanIeluv herself!!!